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Chapter Thirty-Three
The Coastal Route
We
arrived in Laodicea, a city that would become important in my years as a
disciple of Paul. At this stage in
my life, I knew only that we had to travel through it to reach the imperial way
station in order to requisition stores.
When we arrived, hungry and travel worn and looked down at the beautiful
seaside town, it was rejuvenating.
We broke into friendly banter that moment now that we had reached the
first major milestone in our journey south. Though smaller than Tarsus and Antioch, it’s white
temples and sundry buildings stretched into the surrounding hills and down the
seashore jewel-like against the evening sun, now setting in the west. Disregarding the standard policy for
official military business of going directly to a Roman way station, which was
a league down the coast, we stopped by a shop and purchased five flasks of
quality wine. Pooling our meager
wages, we also purchased fresh lamb, bread, and vegetables to supplement what
we would later requisition. We
were fortunate to arrive just before the shops closed for the evening. Fronto bought sweet meats from a vendor
on the street, which would provide us with a fine dessert. Too often the imperial storeroom would
dole out foul-tasting Syrian wine and food. We would, of course, receive our supplies from the duty
officer, but tonight, instead eating the dried fish, cheese, and stale bread
issued, which was the normal meal at imperial way stations, we would eat fresh
food and drink Greek wine and, upon arriving at the way station, pack the
issued rations away to snack on later between stops.
On
the way through the remainder of town, after using the cloaca and ignoring the
unfriendly glares of townsfolk lining the street, we began drinking almost
immediately. Because of our dirty,
motley appearance, mismatched attire, and mix of horses and mules in our band,
we probably looked like a band thieves, rather than soldiers of Rome. Fronto and Rufus were boisterous,
shouting insults to surly onlookers. Ibrim playfully swatted a man with his
whip. Until we reached the city
limits, the auxilia continued to behave badly. Aulus and I tried calming them down to no avail. Luckily for us we didn’t run into
magistrates or Roman legionnaires in town. That night, after setting up camp, we built ourselves a
roaring fire, cooked ourselves a decent supper, and got properly drunk on good
Greek wine.
Out
of military habit, we were able to set up camp, but the results were much to be
the desired. Aulus made sure that
he and I shared a tent, hastily raised on poles with half of the required tent
pegs provided for the trip.
Fronto, Rufus, and Ibrim planned to sleep out in the open if they were
too drunk. Tied expeditiously to
nearby saplings, the horses and mules were allowed to forage in a nearby
field. Because of the attitude of
the men, I suspected there would be no sentries tonight. We had, Fronto boasted tipsily, a night
of festivities ahead of us. Rufus
and he would swap bawdy tales, and I could tell some of those stories they
liked so much. I was sure Ibrim
would say some strange things as he had before, and even Aulus, after emptying
half his flask, might share a few jokes.
As we laughed at each other’s foolishness, the fire ring provided by the
station was filled with the available lumber and kindling lying about the
camp. The sharpened stick for the
fire spit was speared with hunks of lamb, dropped in its supports, and turned
by each of us as we ate fresh bread, ripe plums, and drank our wine.
That
evening, after the sun had set and we had eaten our fill, I realized that I was
the most sober of the bunch. The
truth was, I could scarcely talk, and when I was asked to expound more tales of
my demigod brother I humored them by telling them about the sermon he gave to
the townsfolk after returning from his trip. It must have sounded like gibberish. In spite of my excellent memory, I
barely remember the words. I do
remember looking around and seeing the other men, even Aulus, lying on the
ground were they tumbled, too drunk to make it to their pallets. I also remember being sick and vomiting
my dinner in the nearby woods.
Even in my drunken state I was worried about the lack of security in our
camp. Not long after I attempted to
rouse Aulus, a sentry from the Imperial station did, in fact, appear on the
scene, scolding us severely for our laxity in camp.
“Whose
in charge here?” he barked, looking with disgust at my friends.
“No
one,” I answered with a belch. “We’re being transferred to the Galilean
Cohort.”
This
was, of course, a lie, but it seemed insignificant considering the trouble we
might be in. Walking around with a
snarl on his bristly face, he kicked each of them with his boot, and then when
that didn’t rouse them, prodded them with his sword.
“This
is disgraceful,” his voice rose in indignation. “You have posted no
guards. You haven’t even set up
camp properly, and not a one of you could, if he had to, stand a post.
“That’s
not necessary,” I remember saying, as I tapped them one-by-one. “These men have
been through a terrible ordeal.
We’ve lost over half our number in the desert. I almost became a slave. You’d be drunk too if you were treated like those poor
men. I’m young; it doesn’t matter
so much, but what do they have to look forward to?”
I
had been sober enough to deliver a fine speech. For a moment, as he walked up to me as though he just might
just rap me with the flat side of his sword, I forget my own prowess with the
gladius and cringed with fear. But
then, after sheathing his sword, he studied me a moment. His chiseled features, which seemed set
in anger, softened, until I saw the vaguest inkling of a smile.
“How
old are you?” he asked, glancing back at the others.
“Oh,
I’m not so young,” I squirmed under his scrutiny. “I’ve seen more than eighteen
summers. What I’ve gone through
has added years onto my shoulders.
I even have the makings a beard.”
My
effort at being droll that moment caused him to utter a sour laugh, but he
wasn’t amused.
“What’s a lad like you doing with the likes of
them?” He motioned with his head.
“Auxilia!” he spat the words.
“Never known one yet who wouldn’t knife you then steal your last mite.”
“They’re
good men,” I came to their defense. “They’ve been through hard times. We all
have. Please don’t report them to
your superior.”
“I’m
the superior of this station,” he stuck out his jaw. “After waking me up in the
middle of the night, one of my men reported that there were no sentries in your
group. I don’t care if you men
drink yourselves into oblivion.
You must post guards!”
“I’ll
stand watch sir!” I piped, clicking my heels together smartly.
I
noticed at that point, by his helmet and scrolled cuirass, that he was an
optio. An expression of
incredulity came over his face now as he considered my statement. It seemed as if my fear had sobered me
up enough to stand at attention, chest thrust out, and eyes forward, yet the
hard-bitten Roman looked me up and own as if I had lost my wits.
“In
your condition you really think you could stand a post until morning?” He asked
with a straight face.
At first, I thought he might shake his head and walk
away. Then, when I failed to
answer, he broke into knee-slapping mirth. I was so greatly relieved I didn’t care that it was done at
my expense. I’ve been laughed at
by better men than you, I told myself, joining in his banter.
“No,”
I answered, playing the game,“...I’ll be unconscious by dawn. I must rouse some of the others, so we
can take turns.”
“What?”
he cried. “You think you can awaken the dead?”
The
optio inspected the sleeping men again.
Three of them—Rufus, Fronto, and Ibrim—lie pell-mell around the fire,
mouths agape and snoring loudly, lying exactly where they fell. Aulus, the only one who made it to the
tent, lay half in and half out, still clutching a flask. When one of his men appeared that
moment, he joined in the mirth.
Between guffaws the optio managed to ask, “What’s
your name lad?”
“Judah
bar Joseph,” I blurted. “I mean
Thaddeus Judaicus—my Roman name.” I added, cupping my mouth. “You see I’m drunk
sir,” I quickly apologized. “Excuse my mistake.”
“Hah! That’s a Jew name,” the second Roman
cried. “By Jove,” he pointed accusingly with a grin, “you’re a Jew!”
“Is
that true lad?” the optio raised an eyebrow. “Don’t lie to me. That was a slip of the tongue.”
“All
right,” I confessed, “I’m not a Gentile, but I’m a loyal Roman.”
“Are
you serious Jude Thaddeus?” he asked, after considering my revelation. “…You
people hate us. You’ve rebelled
enough. What would possess a young
Jew to join up? The legion’s no
place for a Jew. You’re not even
required for the levy. There’s no
such thing as Jewish conscripts.
Are you daft?”
The
name he labeled me with, Jude Thaddeus, would be used in later years. Now, encompassing my two sides, Jew and
Gentile, it seemed strangely appropriate.
The words now poured out in my own defense: “I wanted to be soldier scribe. I’ve done well as soldier, killing many men. After being captured by bandits, I was
sold as a slave then purchased by a rich merchant, who gave me my freedom in
order to make me a proper Jew. Yet I opted for the army. When I finally arrived in the Antioch,
Aurelian, prefect of the fort, wanted to hire me for his staff. Unfortunately, I had been summoned to
return home to my family business.
I’m returning this very day with my friends to Nazareth, but someday I
plan to rejoin. A man is born into
his race, but its up to him which master he serves!”
It
was the most controversial thing I had ever said. My family and neighbors would have been shocked at some of
things I had said and done in my misadventures as a Roman soldier; now, to
impress these Romans, I had boasted killing men and vowed allegiance to
Rome. Nevertheless, it was immediately
effective. The capricious mood of
the station guards, so typical of Roman soldiers, changed that moment. My words, which seemed like heresy to
me now, had cut short their laughter and turned their smiling faces to looks of
esteem. Reaching out one-by-one to
grip my forearm, they appeared to acknowledge my loyalty to the legions.
“My
name’s Argos,” the first Roman introduced himself finally, “and this is Salva,
one of my men.”
Salva bowed differentially. I was speechless, bowing in return,
touching my forehead, as I had seen Ibrim do, to show my respect.
“My men will widen their patrol tonight,” Argos
explained indulgently. “You sleep it off with the other slackers.” “Take my
advice young man,” he said in parting before he and Salva disappeared into the
darkness, “go home to your people.
The Roman army’s no place for a Jew!”
“Argos,”
Salva could be heard in the distance, “I think I’ve heard everything now: a
Jewish soldier of Rome!”
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The
rude station guards were typical of Rome’s soldiers, and yet my Roman
protectors said basically the same thing.
I was, in spite of my comportment, barely able to make it to my pallet,
yet the words spoken by Argos were imprinted in my mind—Go home to your people.
The Roman army’s no place for a Jew!”
Recalling the title he gave me, I giggled foolishly, swiping at
imaginary foes with my sword.
“Jude
Thaddeus,” I murmured drowsily, “I like the sound of that—just right for a
warrior Jew.” “Take that you swines.” I hacked at the darkness. “Death to infidels. You’re tangling with the Reaper…A lot
those sonsabitches know!”
Amused
by this turn of events, I made water on a nearby tree, crawled into the tent
next to Aulus, and fell into a deep untroubled asleep. There were no prophetic visions or dark
images in my head this time, just that nonsensical fabric of dreams that are
quickly forgotten the following morning.
The urgency of my helping Jesus with the family business had not left
me. My first thought, in fact, was
the foolishness of our actions last night, yet matters could have been
worse. When I awakened, I was the
only riser. It was the first time
I had experienced this phenomena since leaving home. Everyone had drunk heavily last night. After drinking, eating too much lamb,
and cramming my stomach with Fronto’s sweetmeats, I had finally thrown up, an
event that reduced the ill effects of the wine. When I confronted the station guards, it gave me a level of
sobriety over the other men who drank themselves to oblivion around the
fire. Because of my purge, I was
not lying unconscious like the others on the ground. The problem that hour was to rouse the men and get us back
on the road. Though I joined in
eagerly with them yesterday when I was handed my own flask of wine, I had great
misgivings this morning about the precedent we had set. Is this what our journey south would
be: one long, meaningless drinking bout until I parted with my friends and
returned home?
Wasting
no more time deliberating, I walked around gently kicking and shaking my
friends. Aulus, who lie half-in
and half-out of the tent, appeared to be in the exact same position he was in
last night. He was snoring heavily
and muttered groggily when I gave him a shake. Though grumbling and making snorting noises, none of the men
were motivated until I shouted “Wake up, it’s time to break camp!” shrilly
through cupped hands. Though I
was, myself, feeling some effects from last night, I managed, as they stirred,
to lead the horses and mules one-by-one to the water trough provided by the
station. It appeared as if they
had eaten enough of the wild wheat growing in the field. Decimus had once explained to us that
not all imperial stations provided fresh mounts, so I was glad to see the
horses, as well as my mules, fit and ready for the march. Unfortunately, my traveling companions
weren’t. It was only after I had
led the final mule back and tethered it with the others, that one of the men stood
up, cursing loudly about a ringing head.
“Someone
stole my wine!” Fronto roared. “I
had another stowed in my saddle bag.
Those Roman dogs!”
“No
one took your flask,” I called cheerily, as I returned to camp. “I had a
discussion with the optio and one of his guards. They were angry that we hadn’t posted a guard, but I calmed
them down. We must grab a bite to
eat and get back on the road heading south.”
“Who
made you the leader?” he grumbled. “You drank as much as me. Why’re you grinning like an ape?”
“Because,”
I replied, sticking a finger in my mouth, “I was sick. We all drank too much wine last
night. I got rid of most of my
mine. You men promised me that we
would have a speedy journey home.
I’d like to reach the next imperial station before dark.”
“Oh,
is that right your highness.” He bowed comically. “I forgot you’ve been favored
by the prefect. Perhaps we should
take a vote.” “Hey, men,” he bellowed, looking around the camp. “Everyone who
wants to put Thaddeus, the Jew, in charge, raise your hand.”
“Leave
him alone,” Aulus called weakly, “he’s the only one us worth a mite.”
I
ran to him that moment, concerned that he might be ill. He was having trouble just sitting
up. I needed help with the
overweight Roman, but Rufus and Ibrim could scarcely rise up themselves. Reaching down, with Fronto’s belated
help, I raised him slowly to his feet.
“Are
you all right?” my voice trembled.
“I’m
fine Thaddeus,” he murmured hoarsely, “...just a damn fool. I let things get me down.”
“You’re a fine soldier,” I reassured
him, “I’m proud to ride with you.”
“Aye.”
Fronto seconded. “I’m a damn fool too.”
“No,”
I said, patting his shoulder, “you’re all good men. I will miss you sorely when I return to the shop.”
“You’ll
not be happy, whittling wood,” the Thracian said glumly. “It’s in your
blood. You’re a natural. I’ll never forget what you did that
night. Six men were struck down by
one sword. Look at you. Thaddeus;
you were captured by cutthroat thieves, sold into slavery, and bought by a rich
Pharisee. Aye, fortune blessed
you, yet you gave up a life of ease to ride with us.”
Though
that was only partially true, what he said about fortune was one hundred
percent correct. I’m not sure
whether or not Fronto was referring to God when he said fortune blessed me, but
I realized now that He had been watching over me all along. In my darkest hours, I had doubted him
and not given him credit for saving my neck. Now, I found myself in need of God’s help. I had four debilitated men, two of
which were not fully conscious, to get ready, on their horses, and on the
highway so that we might reach the next milestone before dusk.
After
much effort, Fronto and I got Rufus and Ibrim onto their feet, while Aulus
walked shakily to the station for stores.
I had absolutely no intention in trading in my mount, and there was
nothing mentioned about fresh horses, which pleased me very much, since this
would take that much more time.
When Aulus began walking back with a large sack of provisions, I took
part of his load. I noticed, to my
dismay, that there was more wine in one of the sacks, but said nothing. If the men wanted more wine they would
simply buy it on the way. What I
was most concerned with was Aulus’ color.
I had seen the shadow of death before: in my childhood friend Nehemiah
and in Caesarius’ face: an ashen shade, with bloodshot eyes. Aulus moved sluggishly as they
had. I handed him a piece of
cheese, hunk of bread, and flask of water, but he refused politely, taking only
a swallow of water after stuffing the food into his saddlebag along with the
flask. After Fronto and I loaded the
tent, equipment, and provisions onto the mules and made sure that Rufus and
Ibrim made water and ate the frugal morning meal, we stood there wolfing down
our own morsels of food. I was
thankful that Fronto had heeded my plea.
He seemed in a hurry now.
During those moments, as I tethered the mules’ reins and harnessed the
guide line to my saddle, the big Thracian shepherded Rufus and Ibrim onto their
horses and told them to stay put.
It took two of us to get Aulus on his horse. He sat shakily on his mount and was in no condition to lead
us the rest of the way nor were Rufus and Ibrim, who would need watching
too. Because I took control of the
mules, which always followed behind horsemen, the honor of leading us would go
to Fronto, the second most sober member of our group.
“I’m
sorry I was such a grouch,” he said, struggling onto his horse, “You gotta get
home. I know that. We’ll make better time when we’re back
in Galilee. I’ll take the
guideline when you get tired.”
“Thank
you, Fronto.” I replied contentedly. “The delay’s my own fault. I could’ve taken a ship, but I was
worried about my mules. The truth
is I have no desire to travel on ship.
My brother asked God to still the waters. I might not be so blessed.”
“Well,” Fronto called back cheerily. “We had a late
start, but it’s not yet noon. Even
if we don’t reach the next station by sunset, we should find another town.”
“It
could be worse,” I piped, patting my mule. “I could’ve taken a ship, but, given
my luck, it might’ve sunk. On the
other hand, if it’s a choice between a ride through a dirty, dusty desert
filled with bandits and a long, crooked road, with towns along the way and the
sweet smell of the sea, I’ll take the coast!”
Fronto
laughed for my benefit. Like the
others, he was feeling the effect of last night. Because I had to watch the mules, I asked Rufus to
watch Aulus. He rode in front of
him and could see the expression on his face. Unfortunately, however, he and Ibrim were barely able to
stay in the saddle themselves. My
greatest fear at this point was that the old Roman would fall off his saddle as
Caesarius had done—this time tumbling over a cliff into the sea. When I called a temporary halt and
suggested that we tie him to his horse, Aulus, himself, came awake and balked
at the notion.
“Calm down, Thaddeus,” he said weakly. “I’ll be all
right. I overdid it last night—too
much wine and food. Don’t worry,
lad, I’ll be all right.”
“Then one of us should be on your right,” I
insisted. “This stretch isn’t so narrow.
While I tow my mules, you men could ride two-by-two.”
“Very
well,” Rufus heaved a sigh, “it’s all the same to me.”
“I’ll
ride on Ibrim’s right,” Fronto said, backing up his horse. “He’s ready to fall
out of his saddle too.” “You feeling better?” He paused to study the Gaul.
“Better,...not
good.” Rufus grunted.
“I
know what you mean,” he said with a shrug. “We’ve all been foolish.”
“Well,
I don’t need a baby sitter,” Aulus grumbled. “Ibrim’s in worse shape than me.”
Ibrim
said nothing as Fronto shifted to his right.
“Please
Aulus,” I reasoned sternly. “Face it: you’re not well. At least wrap the reins around your
wrists. There’s no soft sand to
tumble onto here, only rocks. Some
of the shoreline has cliffs!”
The
procession halted a moment. Aulus
looked back at me, a frown playing on his sallow face. Rufus reached over protectively to
place the reins in his hands. With
some effort, Aulus did as I asked.
I noticed, after following my own counsel, that Fronto, Gaul, and even
the wobbly Arab did the same.
“All
right, no more dawdling,” Fronto barked. “We gotta a long ride to the next
station. Let’s keep moving.” “Wake up Ibrim,” he snapped. “Keep that
strap on your wrists. Hold fast to
your reins!”
With
that said, we gave our beasts a kick and resumed our journey south. For the longest period of time, in what
seemed to be a test of endurance, we trudged along the coast, rarely speaking
to each other. I heard a few
complaints, a great amount of grunts and groans, and one loud oath from Fronto
when his horse was startled by a dog running across the road. No one would be in the mood for
conversation, until we stopped for the night. It was fortunate that I was sick and purged myself before I
fell asleep. Aulus, Ibrim, and, to
a lesser degree, Rufus, would feel the effects of our festivities for several
hours. By a process of
elimination, Fronto had become our leader, which made good sense, since he was
by far the biggest member of our group, and could hold his wine. I was quite happy that the big,
normally good-natured, Thracian had taken control of our group. Considering how little time I
spent in my effort to join the army and the many years my friends had served in
the service of Rome, I belonged at the rear of our procession watching the
mules. They were my
responsibility, no one else’s, but I hoped that Fronto would keep his promise
and take over the line for a while.
For more leagues than I wanted to count, he prodded us along, making
sure our stops were just long enough for us to rest a spell, eat our rations,
feed and water the horses and mules, then get back on the road. During the long ride south, Fronto,
with Rufus and my help, kept Aulus and Ibrim in their saddles, which was not
easy when we reached the steepest portions of our trip. There were times when we looked over
the side and saw a sheer drop to the rocky shoreline below. Rufus managed, in spite of his own
discomfort, to remain a buffer between the tottering Aulus and those steep
cliffs on our right, and Fronto reached over on occasion to grip Ibrim’s tunic
to hold him steady on his horse.
Meanwhile, I was being worn out by the constant effort of towing the
mules and managing my own mount.
Finally,
at our third stop of the day, in which we took advantage of a roadside well and
watered both ourselves and the horses and mules and snacked on our rations,
Fronto took over the towline when we got back on the road. By that point, Ibrim was in much better
shape and Aulus, though he still required close watch, seemed less wobbly on
his horse. When I took my place
next to the Arab, I was, in effect, leading the march. It was my job to keep the pace and
watch out for the next milestone along the road. Unlike Fronto, though, I would not bark at the men when they
didn’t move fast enough. The
Thracian was still in control. In
fact, before we made camp for the night, Rufus, then Ibrim, himself, at
Fronto’s insistence, took turns towing the mules.
We
arrived near the town of Tripolia, travel-worn and out of sorts. No one cared what lie over the
hill. We had reached the first
imperial station since leaving Laodicea.
The temptation of Greek wine and rich food were always waiting in nearby
towns, but tonight we needed solid Roman rations and a good night’s sleep. There would be no reverly this time,
especially for poor Aulus, who had to be carried to his pallet. After a sparse, hastily eaten meal, we
sat around the fire discussing the fate of our friend, now sleeping fitfully in
his tent.
“He
doesn’t look good,” came Fronto’s gravelly voice. “After that business in the
desert he was never the same.”
“Humph,”
grunted Rufus, “no one’s been the same. He drank too much wine last night, more than even me. That didn’t help.”
“We
all drank too much.” Ibrim stared blankly into the fire. “Thaddeus was
lucky he got sick.” “Next time I
act foolishly,” he added, raising up two fingers, “I’m doing it myself.”
“That’s
disgusting.” I made a face.
“It
works,” he said, tossing a twig into the flames. “If I had been conscious, I would’ve done it last
night. This morning I thought my
head was going to explode!”
“Not
a bad idea,” Rufus replied thoughtfully. “I’ve seen Romans stick feathers down
their throats to make them vomit, but fingers are better.”
“Disgusting,”
I insisted. “...What about you Fronto?’ I looked across the fire. “You didn’t
get that sick.”
“Oh,
I felt sick.” He laughed softly. “I just didn’t show it. I also didn’t drink as much. Aulus out drank us all!”
The
question hung unspoken a moment as we thought about our friend: “Would the old
Roman survive the long trip?”
Glancing back at the tent, I chose my words carefully, “...If Aulus will
come home with me, I think my mother might be able to cure him. If not her potions, my brother’s
prayers should work. Jesus has a
special relationship with God. He
once told me that the faith of a mustard seed could move mountains.”
“A
mustard seed?” Fronto made a face. “You have a very strange god. Why would he bother with that broken
down old soldier?”
“That’s
very unkind,” I bristled. “Do you remember the incident of the sparrow?
According to Jesus, God watches over all of his creation.”
“Bah,”
spat Fronto, “He hasn’t helped us so far!”
“He
saved my life!” my voice creaked up a notch. “All along, from Galilee through
that awful desert, he kept me from harm.
Considering the odds against us, I think he watched over you and the
others too.”
“Words!”
Rufus said with great bitterness. “Why did my brother Enrod die? He was a good man. So was Vesto. Those desert people nearly wiped us out. None of our men deserved to die in that
stinking place!”
“You
don’t understand my faith,” I tried explaining. “....We take the good with the
bad. Job, a righteous man, was
tested by Satan and proved to be worthy.
Good men are tested, some of them die, but if we try to live a good life
we are rewarded.…The body dies, yet we live...”
My
voice trailed off in wonder. Not
yet comprehending Jesus’ doctrine of eternal life, I thought about I had just
said. What was I trying to say? The four men looked at me with
dumbfounded expressions.
Ibrim
studied me a moment. “Thaddeus, that doesn’t make sense. I’ve listened to you talk about your
god, whom I think is a fine fellow, but he has done very little for you. That other Jewish fellow you mentioned,
Elisha, saved you. My people have
hundreds of gods, not one of them worth a mite. I believe in what I see. If it’s Aulus time, he will die,” “and that’s that!” He
snapped his fingers.
“How
do you explain me killing all those men at the imperial station?” I tried a
different tact. “You really think I could’ve done that all by myself.”
“Yes.”
Ibrim nodded. “I’ve seen stranger things before.”
“He’s
a natural warrior,” cried Fronto, “just stubborn. I once saw a gladiator kill ten men!”
“Ibrim! Fronto!” I raised my hand in dismissal.
“You’ve never seen anything like that—neither of you. Ibrim, you told me you thought I was possessed by a
jinn. What is it, man—luck or the
Jinn? It can’t be both. If my god can’t do it, evil spirits
can’t either.” “Trust me.” I stood up, looking around the group. “My mother can help Aulus. She pulled Reuben, my family’s onetime
enemy, and my friend Uriah from death’s door. She’s been treating townsfolk for years with her potions and
herbs. After Jesus saved that sparrow,
he changed. His prayers began
helping others too. You’ve never
seen anyone pray like him. He told
the storms to cease, brought back the Pharisees son, and—something I saw with
my own eyes—opened the skies over Nazareth to put out the widow Mariah’s
fire—all through prayer. When I
return home, Aulus is coming with me.
You men are welcome to our hospitality. I want you to meet my family and my family to meet you. Mostly, I want you to meet Jesus, my
brother...You’ve never known anyone like him!”
******
That
night, after the others crawled onto their pallets, I was tempted to sleep in
the open next to fire as some of the men did last night. Aulus groaned and muttered to himself
in his sleep. It upset me very
much, especially when there was nothing that I could say or do. The second tent wasn’t much better; the
auxilia snored loudly and often made wind. For a long period of time, I sat there by the fire,
wondering if my boast had been foolish.
What if Jesus resented my presumption? What if my father was ill, as I suspected, and mother
had no time for my friend? My
family might be going through hard times right now. For that matter, our neighbors wouldn’t like me bringing a
band of unwashed Gentile into town.
Our association with soldiers had been bad enough for us. Because we befriended the guards
assigned to our town, we had been called collaborators. Now I was bringing auxilia to Nazareth. With the exception of Aulus, these men
weren’t even Romans. They were
loud, unruly, and uncouth men.
Of my four friends, I worried about Fronto and Ibrim the most. Fronto would suffer no fools. Ibrim, if given the chance, would say
the most outlandish things. Only
Rufus held his tongue in mixed company.
If Joseph was still living at home and James happened to be visiting
when I returned, I might have a serious problem. My older brothers wouldn’t take kindly to their presence in
our home nor would the town elders approve. As always, I had been impulsive and stupid. Aulus was very sick. I wanted to help him, but I shouldn’t
have promised that to the men.
As
I lay down on my blanket by the fire, I was resigned to the fact that Aulus
might not last through the night.
In spite of my fears and misgivings, I tumbled into a troubled, fitful
sleep.
Once
again, after many weeks, I dreamed I was standing in front of my house afraid
to go in. I saw Jesus alone,
working tirelessly in the shop.
This time there was not one living soul about. I wanted to go inside the house but it was too terrible to
consider. I refused to consider
the obvious implications. “Jesus!”
I called this time. The second
time I tried getting his attention my voice caught in my throat. “Oh, Jesus!” my mother shrieked from
inside, “come quickly!” Jesus
ignored my presence entirely and ran into the house...That was all this
time. I awakened from my brief
nightmare perspiring and out of breath.
I had lain close to the fire, but I had broken into a cold sweat. Jumping up upon shaky legs I stood
there, staring into the darkness, feeling helpless that it was going to take so
long. Pacing back and forth for
several moments, I clinched my fist, muttering to myself, “I’m such a
fool! I’m such a fool!” I could have taken a ship. I would be home in a few days, but no I
had five mules and wanted to ride with my friends!
As
I stood contemplating the dark, I was suddenly shaken. The imperial way station at which we
requisitioned supplies had been small, having only three guards, two of whom
appeared to be old men. There had
been no optio, just a surly youth with buckteeth, who didn’t believe we were
Roman soldiers until Fronto showed him the requisition. We had been so exhausted we barely ate
our rations and drank only a few swallows of wine. But that was before sunset. Now there was blackest night, with only a smoldering fire
for light. We were on our own out
here. What had happened to these
men, I wondered, as I prudently tossed branches and twigs into the ring? Our journey south was nothing like our
journey north, when I rode with nine energetic, if not argumentative auxilia
and veterans, presided over by three strong, hard-bitten Romans who managed to
hold together the fragile alliance, in spite of Apollo and Ajax’s efforts to
tear us apart. In the end, which
came finally in the desert, we were united, fighting like brothers against
overwhelming odds. Now, we had no
optio (Fronto could hardly be considered a leader), and the last Roman appeared
to be at death’s door. Everyone,
including the Thracian, was going through the motions, just to get by. Not only were we down to five travel
worn, dispirited men, but we hadn’t posted sentries around our camp, because no
one cared.
Here we were, I thought, with a shudder, in the
middle of nowhere, without so much as a lantern to light our camp. That moment, as I considered the
dangers of our position, I heard a voice.
It was muffled and indistinct at first. Startled by this sound, I pulled my sword. Crouching down, I looked cautiously
around the camp.
“Thaddeus!
Thaddeus!” Aulus called faintly from his pallet.
Running
over and throwing open the flap, I looked into the tent. Realizing it was too dark to see,
however, I ran back to the fire ring and lifted up a burning branch to use as a
torch. In the eerie glow, lying
where we dumped him, his black pupils glazed and face covered with
perspiration, Aulus reached out plaintively. “Water lad,” he pleaded, “gimme water.” Scurrying frantically around the camp a
moment until I found a flask, I placed it in his trembling hands, watching
expectantly as he guzzled it down then splashed water over his face and
neck.
“Listen lad,” he said hoarsely, “this illness will
pass. It’s the fever. I got it in that infernal swamp in
Egypt. It comes and goes. I heard what you promised those men,
but it’s not necessary. I’ll be
back, fit as a mule in a few days.
When we ride into Tripolia our next stop, find an herb dealer. Black wart root is a sure cure for
swamp fever. Already I’m feeling
better, but black wart will hurry things along.”
“Praise God,” I muttered thankfully, “it’s good that
you sweat Aulus. I’ve seen my
mother treating townsfolk, and this is a good sign. I’ve heard of this fever; it can be treated. We didn’t know what was wrong. Now it has a name: swamp fever. Potions can cure ill humors and poisons
of the blood. We’ll find a
physician in that town.”
“Black wart root.” He exhaled raggedly. “That’s all
I need.”
“Of course,” I replied, gratified that he seemed
better. “You must be famished. We
requisitioned rations this evening.”
“Well,” he said weakly, “I could used a bite of
cheese and bread.” “I’d like to turn over my pallet. It’s soaked with sweat.”
Startling me half out of my wits, the shadowy hulk
of Fronto stood silhouetted against the fire. “Here, I’ll give you a hand,” he said, reaching down, as I
helped Aulus to his feet. Rufus,
who must also have been awakened, appeared that moment, as did Ibrim, blinking
stupidly in the light.
“By the gods,” Rufus said in disbelief, “we thought
you were done for. Look at you
standing on your feet.”
“Sit him down here away from the fire,” I directed,
pointing to a log. “Aulus is hot enough.
One of you please fetch our bag of food. I hope we still have some fruit.”
After he sat
awhile enjoying the night air and munching on his bread and cheese, we guided
him back to the tent.
“This isn’t catching Thaddeus,” explained Aulus.
“It’s not the plague. You can
sleep next to me if you wish.”
“No,” I said, shaking my head, “you were thrashing
around quite a bit earlier. I’m
going to bed down out here.
Someone has to be on watch.”
“That’s right,” Fronto slapped his forehead, “we
didn’t post sentries.”
“Incredible,” grumbled Aulus. “What have we come
to?”
“All right.” The Thracian shrugged. “When we reach
the station near Sidon, we’ll take turns.
We have four good men we can rotate.” “No offense, Aulus,” he said,
guiding him gently onto his pallet, “you just rest.”
“No offense taken.” Aulus laughed wanly. “It would
be different if the station was close by.
Those guards at this station are useless. Humph! Old men
and a boy—what’s the army coming to?”
“Ah, he’s coming around,” teased Ibrim. “That’s
proof he’s going to be all right.”
I looked around at the others. “In Tripolia, we must
find a physician. Aulus needs a
special medicine.”
“Black wart,” muttered Aulus, “that’s all I need!”
******
Aulus slept peacefully that night, as did we
all—comforted by the apparent improvement of our friend. After a hasty meal, we broke camp, did
our business, and climbed cheerfully onto our mounts. Everything seemed much better now that the Roman might be on
the mind. The old soldier still
needed watching as he sat on his horse and I wouldn’t feel comfortable until we
had purchased some black wart root.
Unfortunately, after Rufus and I rode ahead to find this drug, we could
find no physician or herbalist.
Tripolia, a sleepy town, much smaller town than Antioch or Laodicea,
still appeared to be asleep. Considering
the hour, this was probably true, but I still felt like pounding on a few doors. I was very disappointed, and Aulus
wasn’t happy with our report, but I promised him we would find his medicine in
the next town. Sidon was a
fair-sized city, Fronto declared.
Surely we could find black wart root there.
The ride to Sidon, which required two rest stops,
brought back our fears temporarily when Aulus became querulous, which grew to
delirium at times, until he had rested up enough to be helped back onto his
horse. When we reached our next
station, however, our optimism returned.
Not only were there several guards, who regularly patrolled the camps,
but Sidon was nearby, right over the hill. While the others stayed in camp with Aulus, Fronto and I
rode into town to find a physician or herbalist.
At first no one in the seaside town had heard of
black wart root. We had a
difficult enough time just find a physician at the late hour. Then, right before sunset, we found a
shop on the corner of town where a one-eyed Syrian sold all manner of
pharmacopoeia I recognized immediately from my mother’s collection of herbs.
“You wish to inflame the passions, get rid of
illness, or poison a friend?” his voice trilled. “Uthmar has what you
need.” “Come, come,” he beckoned a
long finger-nailed hand, displaying yellow teeth as he smiled. “Uthmar has many
wonderful herb to make one happy, well or dead!”
Under normal circumstances as Jew, I would have
shrunk from this evil place, but these were not normal circumstances. I was no longer a typical Jew, and I
had no compunction against dealing with this man, especially with the big
Thracian by my side.
“We need black wart root,” I informed him coldly.
“Were you serious about selling poison to customers? I find that hard to believe.”
“If the Romans get wind of it,” Fronto growled,
intersecting two index fingers, “it’s the cross!”
“Ho, ho” Uthmar forced a laugh. “It was a joke. All my friends and neighbors know my
wit. You seriously think I would
break the law?”
“Yes, if you don’t get caught.” Fronto plunked down
a few coins. “Black wart—now!”
“Oh yes, for the fever.” he rubbed his grimy
hands. “I have a fresh batch.”
“All right Uthman,” Fronto gave him a wry look,“we
won’t tell the Romans about your black art.”
The dark, ugly root looked like one of the items my
mother found in Nazareth’s hills.
Uthmar advised us to boil it in water and make the patient drink it
three times a day, until the fever passed. We thanked him cordially, took our precious root, and began
looking for fresh vegetables in town.
When we returned to camp, we didn’t mention the wine Fronto purchased
and hid in his saddlebag. We
agreed that, until we made better progress in our journey, wine would be
reserved for celebration, perhaps when we reached Galilee or one of the major
towns. Fresh leeks and a handful
of overripe fruit supplemented our moldy bread and dried pork (which I
pretended was lamb) issued by the stationmaster. Though we had more protection here, we had been issued
better food at the last station.
What made up a little for the paltry stores was the availability of
fresh mounts this time, which I declined, and the normal issue of spirits,
which Fronto sparingly doled out.
Everyone promised to forego festivities and rest up for the journey
ahead.
Following Aulus instructions, I cut off a small
piece of black wart root with my knife, placed it in Aulus helmet after
removing its lining, and boiled it over the coals. Though he claimed it tasted like camel piss, Aulus drank it
without protest. We had, he
pointed out, as I wrapped it carefully in the cloth Uthman gave me and tucked
it in my saddlebag, enough root to cure a company of men. The truth was, of course, Aulus still
looked sickly after the fever left him.
During the several stops and few overnighters we complimented him on his
color and spunk, but we knew he was not the same Aulus who left Galilee months
back. During our short breaks, we
tried to keep it brief to meet my time constraints. Everyone knew I about my bad dreams and my concern for
helping Jesus in the shop. During
our overnighters, however, we made the best of our time. I told them more about my people’s
history, occasionally adding an anecdote from my childhood, and Ibrim would say
something strange or Fronto share a coarse tale, but the Roman remained silent
and listless, speaking only when prodded.
Rufus, the only one in the group affected by my attempts to share my
faith with them, still thought Jesus was a demigod like Hercules or one of his
tribal gods.
When we reached Ptolemais then turned east, we had
arrived squarely in Galilee. By
then, root or no root, Aulus was a mere shell of a man. Though it broke my heart, I wouldn’t
repeat my boast about my mother’s cures nor would I imply that Jesus could save
him by prayer. I had every
intention of asking them for help, but I was afraid Aulus might not make
it. Even during our celebration at
the last imperial camp, the Greek wine we allowed ourselves, couldn’t drown the
truth: Aulus days seemed numbered.
Would he fall dead off his mount as had Caesarius? With each mile, he struggled just to hold
onto his reins.
With the greatest anticipation, as we traveled through Galilee, I also wondered what awaited me in Nazareth. Was my father ill? As my dream implied, had my other brothers flown, leaving poor Jesus to mind the shop alone? And what would the townsfolk think of my friends when we rode into town? …. I would soon find out!
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