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Chapter
Forty-Two
Who
is Jesus?
The
day that John the Baptist singled out Jesus as the Lamb of God was the
beginning of my brother’s ministry in Judea and Galilee, yet it was not clearly
understood by John’s followers, who had expected another King David to deliver
them from oppression. According to
Amos, John’s courier, even John’s closest disciples, Andrew and Philip, whom he
suddenly handed over his successor to, were caught off guard. Following Amos’s dirty finger, my eyes
were led to these important men.
The Apostle John would record this as a great event—the fulfillment of
scripture, but at the time, as we looked on, it was an awkward moment. As Andrew, Philip and John’s other
followers watched Jesus approach, dripping with water, his hair plastered onto
his face, they seemed embarrassed.
It couldn’t have been as impulsive an act as it must have seemed to
them. John must have had this in
mind when he sent for Jesus, and yet Amos and I saw surprise and even
disappointment among everyone present.
Was John abandoning his role as his followers’ spiritual leader or
merely giving Jesus two of his best men?
More importantly, for the bigger picture, what did this mean? Just who was Jesus suppose to be? Why did John call him the Lamb of
God? For a few, familiar with
scriptures, this claim implied that Jesus was the long-awaited Messiah.
Amos
and I discussed this quietly amongst ourselves as Jesus, John, his disciples,
and four other men stood chatting on the riverbank. There was no question that the Baptist had caused
controversy again in the minds of onlookers not yet committed enough to
join. Those very moments, we saw a
man climb onto his horse and ride off at a gallop, either to inform the authorities
about this heresy or, if he was a convert, spread the word. Normally, Amos explained to me, John
would either awe or anger his listeners.
He always put on quite a show. Yet, with the exception of John, himself,
we saw little excitement for Jesus among the other men.
Much
later, after joining up, myself, when I had a chance to talk to Jesus’ first
apostles, I was not surprised by their doubts. Until he actually assumed the role given to him by his
cousin and began to preach, they weren’t impressed. Of course, they didn’t know him as I did. John’s closest disciples like all his
other followers were simple men.
How could they fathom that Jesus, who replaced the Temple’s sacrifice,
was the offering for our sins?
Though he had been singled out as the Lamb of God who would take away
the sins of the world, no one except the Baptist made the connection that
day. John’s closest disciples,
Andrew and Philip, were especially troubled. They were to set aside the fiery wild man of the desert for
a man they didn’t know. What did
this strange, blue-eyed mystic have in mind for them now that they had
abandoned John? It seemed almost
laughable at first. Then it sunk
into the disciples’ minds and spread throughout the congregation: This was not
merely another dramatic flurry of words by the prophet. This was the man John had promised
them. For those who were
knowledgeable enough to understand what it meant, this was hard to digest. I would learn later that a few
Pharisees in the crowd would inform the Sanhedrin about John’s claim. That day, however, despite what Amos
told Jesus and me about John’s detractors, no protests were shouted after
John’s announcement, only a low, murmur of discontent and doubt among the
skeptics in the crowd. No one
clearly understood the Baptist choice of successor, if that’s what he was, nor
had the prophecy of the coming savior, even to learned men, ever been
clear. Even Isaiah appeared to
equivocate. Almost as an
afterthought, John had introduced his cousin as Jesus of Nazareth but gave him
no title that moment. Most of
those standing by the river barely heard the introductions made between John,
his closest disciples, and Jesus, which struck me as strange and somewhat rude. In the ranks of observers and the
recently converted the questions were more basic. It had been a sunny day as John went about the business of
preparing lost souls for the Deliverer and suddenly, out of nowhere, Jesus
arrived to be baptized too, but as the Lamb of God. There was, mingled in with the general reverence shown the
prophet, confusion and discontent among men and women in the crowd. According to Amos, the Pharisees had
been the most vocal, and yet they appeared to be in a state of shock. Pointing his dirty finger again, Amos
singled out the Pharisees that today—finely dressed, pious Jews, with
phylacteries and oiled beards. I
wasn’t surprised. In Nazareth our
family’s worst critics were these men.
Cupping my ear I could hear them clucking like hens back and forth.
“Humph,
who is this Lamb?” the first man asked
“I
heard John call him Jesus,” answered a second man. “In Hebrew it’s Yeshua. John’s name is Greek too.”
“Really?”
the first man muttered, “I heard of this rascal John, but not Jesus. What’s the
Baptist up to now?”
“Word
is,” claimed a third man, “Jesus is the prophet’s cousin.”
“Yes,”
a fourth man replied, “and his poorer cousin too, a Nazarene—a carpenter at
that!
“He
doesn’t look like much,” a fifth man joined in. “Look at John’s ‘Lamb.’ In stead of a chariot with an army of
angels, he rides in on a mule!”
The
five Pharisees laughed smugly and, as John’s followers frowned disapprovingly
at them, continued their conversation in muted tones.
I bristled at what these self-righteous
men were saying. Amos had only
contempt for Pharisees, but he understood why Jesus might be vulnerable to
their barbs. Jesus, he confided
thoughtlessly, didn’t even look like a Jew. He didn’t fit into this crowd. In spite of his appearance and mannerisms, my new friend
appeared to be somewhat educated.
Many of the illiterate Jews, he observed, couldn’t grasp all the
subtleties of the prophet’s sermons, and his disciples were barely literate,
themselves. John, who was
thoroughly versed in the scriptures, often used fancy words and said strange,
startling things, and yet he tried to get the basic message across, ‘Repent,
the Kingdom of the Lord is at hand.’
During such times, many in the audience still had dumbfounded
expressions. He would stop, if
necessary, to explain himself again and again, at times irritated by their
thick-headedness. This new
declaration, “Behold the Lamb of God,” Amos believed, would be much more
difficult to explain.
I
was, like everyone else, unable to interpret what I saw and heard. Although I had an excellent memory and
consequently a working knowledge of scriptures, I had never taken the prophets
seriously and I cared not a wit for the law. During these moments, I recalled my days in synagogue school
and time spent as a student of Gamaliel, a great scholar who would one day
challenge Saul. Contrasting
Joachim and even the kindly Aaron’s narrow interpretations and Elisha the
Pharisee’s, was Gamaliel’s presentation of the Torah, Prophets, and Writings,
which comprised the Tanakh, our holiest scrolls. He made an effort to make the Tanakh interesting and
significant to our lives, so we wanted to learn and think for ourselves. It was Gamaliel who gave me the
greatest foundation of my knowledge, and yet it was Jesus’ simple teachings
that were the greatest inspiration in my life. Jesus, who could quote scriptures effortlessly, never
preached redemption or quoted points of the law, but in one momentous event he
had turned our holy writ upside down.
What would Rabbi Aaron’s congregation
think if they caught wind of this?
It would probably be considered heresy. Samuel, who had given Jesus his blessing before he died,
might have considered this a blasphemous act. Simple folk, as those at the river and those back home, had
enough trouble comprehending just ordinary scripture without being given such a
shock. I wouldn’t try to explain
to my family that Jesus, as the Lamb, replaced the sin offerings of the Torah
and was, by inference from the prophet Isaiah, John’s promised Messiah. This notion struck me as barbaric, and
I rejected it outright. I refused
to plague my mother and family with the truth of Jesus’ folly. I decided that I would tell them that
he had joined John in his mission to bring sinners to repentance, which was
half true. The words John uttered
during his baptism of converts were proof of that. Not knowing what Jesus had in mind next, I hoped he would
come to his senses when he discovered what a ragtag band of misfits many of
these people were. The question
was ‘How could I, who was not in John’s inner circle, break Jesus away from
that man?’ Would my brother, in
his frame of mind, even listen?’
After my nightmare about John, I was afraid of him, still half convinced
my dream was a sign.
Amos
claimed that there were prostitutes, thieves, and beggars in the ranks of
uneducated peasants and a number wealthy townsmen, including Pharisees and even
scribes, who found John’s preaching and baptism a diversion in their boring
lives. Until John sent him to fetch
his cousin, he admitted that he had also been impressed. Who could not be overwhelmed by the
prophet’s message? He had never
heard anyone preach like that. But
John had talked about a remote, heaven-sent, Deliverer (or so he thought), not
a man riding in on a mule, who was flesh and blood. How could he convince his followers that Jesus was the long
awaited Messiah? Was Jesus not
born of woman, the son of simple folk, and from a backwater town? That a simple carpenter was the
promised Deliverer was impossible for Amos to digest. He had thought that John might convert my brother as the
others, even make him a prophet, like himself—not make this wild claim. Though I had great respect for Jesus’
miracles and gifts and resented Amos’s remarks, I couldn’t argue with him. With my excellent memory and education
I was well versed in scripture. It
didn’t add up. Except for one
obscure passage about a ‘Suffering Messiah,’ most believers didn’t accept,
Isaiah wrote about a conquering hero.
All rabbis told their congregations about this man. I could remember both Joachim and
Aaron, his successor, telling us to be patient; someday a Deliverer would come
and throw off the yoke of the Gentiles.
Now John called the Messiah the “Lamb.” Was Jesus being deceived by him? He dropped everything to run off and meet this man.
“What
John did today is very strange,” Amos concluded, folding his arms. “Like you,
Jude, I’m familiar with Isaiah, and none of this makes sense. I stopped awhile during my travels to
listen to the “wild man” in the desert, and a few days ago reluctantly agreed
to bring Jesus back. There was
something appealing about his promise of salvation and deliverance from
sins. The world, especially for the
poor, is a hard and unfriendly place.
Of course not everyone agree with John’s visions. Most learned men, like the ones you
heard today, walk away shaking their heads after hearing his shouts. Many of them are insulted by his words. Yet to those simple folks, including
myself, John has a very persuasive way about him that’s sometimes intimidating. He’s patient with his listeners, but he
allows no one to disagree with him.
His eyes bore into you and his voice seems to grab your very soul.”
“He’s
sounds deranged,” I snarled, “not at all like the John I once knew.”
“Humph,”
Amos grunted, “he’s not like the John I knew! The day he sent me to bring Jesus to the river, I wanted to
protest. It sounded
unreasonable. Why had he sent me to
fetch that carpenter, whom he now calls the Lamb of God? How would he fit into John’s plan? Now this. He had promised us that a deliverer was coming, not a
kinsman from a small, barely known town.
I guess I’ll stick around to see how this turns out, but this isn’t what
I had in mind.”
Like
Amos, my mind was in turmoil. Amos
was obviously not a convert yet, but what he said about John, added to what I
had seen and heard today and the nightmare I had last night, caused me great
concern. I remember a friendly,
carefree cousin, who had once comforted me after the loss of my friend, but
that person had changed. He had
abandoned his heritage to join a band of hermits, who had a totally different
conception of our faith. Now he
seemed to be ushering in a new age.
Just what kind of person was this John? What did he want with Jesus?…Would he make him a heretic too?
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To
make matters worse that day, was Jesus’ decision to hike into the desert and
pray. I learned this when I tried
to get his attention. I knew I
couldn’t discourage him from this undertaking, even though Mama had asked me to
do just that. I had to at least
try. At this point, however, as I
walked over finally to ask him what were his plans, he grew testy.
“Jude,”
he said irritably, “you agreed to return when I reached my destination. “This
is not your business. You must go home now, and tell our family that I will be
gone for forty days and nights.
During this time, God will fill my mind with His plans.”
As
I stood there in stunned silence, Jesus continued to converse with John,
Andrew, Philip, and other followers.
Strangely enough, I was the first to hear this bit of news. John and his disciples were shocked
when they were told. It sounded so
absurd I broke into hysterical laughter.
“Did
you hear that?” I giggled, walking back to Amos. “He’s going into the desert
and pray!”
“What?”
Amos cried in disbelief.
Suddenly
things had become even stranger.
Jesus departure into the desert for forty days and nights would delay
the mantle John had placed upon him.
It confused John’s followers that much more, especially Andrew and
Philip. It certainly confused
me. It would prove impossible to
explain to our mother when I returned home. Amos and I couldn’t hear the conversation between Jesus,
John, and the other men, but the expression on their faces told us a lot. Jesus had that otherworldly look on his
face I had seen before, and it was obvious that his listeners were very
upset. It appeared, though, as he
turned away briefly to mingle with the crowd, that his departure was imminent. I was afraid to interrupt these
hallowed moments or embarrass Jesus.
He had a look of resolution on his face.
“It
is rather peculiar,” Amos commented. “John introduces him as the Lamb of
God. Now this. I don’t understand your brother. Why go into the desert? Why would God test him like that? That place is dark and unfriendly at
night. In the daytime there’s no
water or shade. There are wild
dogs, even lions in the hills. Even
John doesn’t go there. What
purpose does it serve?”
I
was at a loss for words. “I don’t know,” I answered, shaking my head, “…I must
talk to him—get him away from those men.”
Amos
frowned at me. “How? Your
brother’s a big, strong man, at least a head taller than you. His mind’s made up, Jude. Do you plan on tying him on his mule to
bring him back?”
As
the men conversed, we remained on the sidelines discussing the crisis. I was not a part of this drama. It appeared as though Amos was having
second thoughts too. Finally,
after quietly arguing with Jesus, John called to my brother as he walked away,
“God’s here and now, Jesus. Not
out there. You’ll die of thirst
and hunger in the wilderness. This
is madness; you’re walking into the desert without food or water. Wait awhile—tomorrow, perhaps the next
day when you have provisions.
Please, Jesus, stop and think this out!”
Jesus,
however, straightened his shoulders and began walking toward the
wilderness. I could scarcely
believe he was leaving now, without food or water and at the noon hour—the
hottest part of the day.
“I’m not afraid,” he called back to us,
“the Lord will provide! Don’t
worry John, Andrew, and Philip—The Lord is speaking to me. I shall return. Please, Amos, accompany my brother back
to Nazareth. I’ll call him when I
need him. You too will one day
serve the Lord!”
“Jesus,” I shouted, “you don’t have to
do this. Leave this place. Come home with me. With your powers, you can do anything
you want!”
Jesus
whirled around angrily that moment as John and I followed after him. “Stop
this—both of you,” he snapped. “Listen to your own words, Jude. Do you really think God will abandon me
now?” “Please, believe me John.” He looked at the prophet. “I must do
this. You know God’s will. When I return from the wilderness, I
will come for you. Continue to
spread the word!”
I
stood there between John and Amos, watching my brother traipse into the desert,
without water or food, a fool’s errand to say the least, and yet I sensed that
moment that he would survive. I
knew Jesus better than anyone there.
I was certain, in spite of my doubts, that I was witness to something
important. What exactly that was I
wasn’t sure. What caused me much
distress was the dilemma Jesus placed me in. How would I explain all this to my family? Our mother would suffer greatly. Jesus might pay us a visit someday, but
not to stay. Amos, who could make
no sense of John’s claim, placed his arm around my shoulders to console me but
said nothing this time. I felt
like weeping. As I stood beside my
new friend that hour, I knew that Jesus was no longer ours. The mission Samuel predicted for him
had come at last. It appeared as
though Jesus, my brother, belonged to the world.
…The Beginning
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