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Chapter Twenty-Two
The Sermon On The Mount
We
awakened the next morning with sunlight streaming through the roof, hearing
Jesus coaxing us to get up, wash, and eat our morning meal. Over and over again, he chanted cheerily,
“The harvest awaits! The harvest awaits!”
We knew today that things would change.
Gone were the small crowds and towns were the harvest was bleak. This was Capernaum. A great multitude from towns in Galilee,
Judea, Decapolis, and Perea waited in the nearby hills. We knew now that Jesus wasn’t merely an
itinerant preacher, rabbi, or prophet.
The almost full realization of who he was in the past few days made us
realize the dangers but also the wonders lying ahead. Jesus, loved by many, was a marked man. Temple agents, magistrates, and the great majority of Pharisees,
scribes, and rabbis would come at him with increasing force. Yet we were bolstered by Jesus’ courage as
much as his miracles and words. Trapped
by our fascination and love for him, we had left our previous lives
forever. There was no turning
back. We were on the precipice of
something mind boggling—a brand new conception of the godhood not written in
the Torah or spoken by the prophets.
Each day that we had been with Jesus, we saw just a little more of his
divinity. The words that he spoke,
which came from the lips of God, became ingrained in our mind, until they
became our words. We were,
however, on the subject of his divinity, no better than infants in our
comprehension. James, with all his
knowledge of the law and history of our people, couldn’t explain what he
felt. The more worldly Matthew, Judas,
and myself, should have better insight, as should Simon, who had once been a
temple spy. But the world had never
seen the likes of Jesus. Doubting
Thomas, after all his many questions, and Peter, who had drawn closer than
anyone to Jesus, didn’t have a clue.
This morning, as the rays of the sun fell on
Jesus head, a halo of light shimmered on his brown hair. His blue eyes blazed too brightly for a
mortal man. That moment, as I rose to
my feet, I could accept him as an angel or, reflecting upon my travels with
Roman, Greek, and Egyptian pagans, a demigod or some sort, but I couldn’t have
imagined my own brother as a manifestation of God. None of us could have understood this, least of all James, who,
because of his teaching as a scribe, had to cast away most of what he had been
taught. Everyone, however, including
Peter’s family and Mary Magdalene, agreed on one thing this morning: Jesus was
the Messiah, the Anointed One spoken of by John.
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As soon as Jesus, his disciples, Esther,
Dinah, Bernice, Mary, and Tobin emerged from the house, we were mobbed by
people, which Peter and Andrew angrily shooed away. There were a few hecklers, but nothing like last night. Simon reminded us about supplicants who were
really wolves in sheep’s clothing: temple agents, like Uzziah and his men, some
of whom were scribes or priests. Simon,
after all, had been a spy, himself.
Peter, who had become Jesus’ chief protector, wouldn’t allow anyone to
get close enough to do him harm.
Andrew, Philip, John, and his brother James, quickly surrounded him as
we exited, elbowing us away, as if they had claims to Jesus now. This would be the pattern from this day
forward. It had been a compulsive
action for the fishermen, but it was deeply resented by Matthew, Simon, Thomas,
James, and me. With the addition of
Judas, we outnumbered them, and James and I were his brothers. We especially shouldn’t be considered
outsiders. Yet suddenly, with Jesus’
apparent approval, we were shoved aside by those men. Bartholomew, on the other hand, was philosophical about it. After a misspent life, he had changed his
name and found new meaning for his life. He felt he was lucky just to be here. As resentful as James and I, though, were Matthew, Simon, and
Thomas, who had never really fit into the group. Unfazed by this apparent discrepancy, were Peter’s family as well
as Mary, satisfied just to tag along. Judas, still hard to define, seemed unconcerned about this issue,
especially with Mary and Bernice in our midst.
While we grumbled amongst ourselves, Bartholomew, his newfound friend
Tobin in tow, had, like Judas and the women, a cheerful disposition. The mule and his cart couldn’t navigate the
bumpy trail, so Bartholomew and Tobin were forced to walk. Yet both men huffed and puffed, laboring for
each breath, stabbing the earth with their canes, refusing to be left behind.
Jesus led us to the hills near Capernaum,
inside the protective ring, which seemed like overkill, but appeared to have
special meaning. From the beginning,
the fishermen had thought of themselves as special, the true inner circle. Now they fancied themselves as Jesus’
protectors. But we were in no danger
now. Men and women with happy looks, as
will as foolish children, strode and scampered on each side of us. The occasional harsh look flashed at us, as we
first began our trek, had nearly vanished.
Through a friendly corridor of expectant faces we ambled. When we reached a spot on the top of the
tallest hill, our antagonism for the fishermen likewise vanished. Jesus was about to give the greatest sermon
of his life.
As we sat around him, others gathered from the
waiting multitude, those who were the swiftest getting the closest spots on the
slopes. The fishermen sat right below
Jesus. The remainder of the disciples
shared proximity with Peter’s family and Tobin. By sheer chance or divine providence, I wound up beside
Mary. This time, however, I tried
clearing out my foolish thoughts.
Standing up and looking around at the people strewn thickly below on the
hills, Jesus said in the most clarion voice:
“Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is
the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall
be comforted. Blessed are the meek, for
they shall inherit the earth. Blessed
are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled. Blessed are the merciful, for they shall
obtain mercy. Blessed are the pure in
heart, for they shall see God. Blessed
are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God. Blessed are those who are persecuted for
righteousness’ sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
“Blessed are you when they revile and persecute you,
and say all kinds of evil against you falsely for My sake. Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great
is your reward in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before
you. You are the salt of the earth; but
if the salt loses its flavor, how shall it be seasoned? You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be
hidden. Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on
a lamp stand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. Let your light so shine before men, that they
may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.”
“Do not think that I came to destroy the Law or the
Prophets. I didn’t come to destroy but
to fulfill. For assuredly, I say to
you, until heaven and earth pass away, one jot or one tittle will by no means
pass from the law until all is fulfilled.
Whoever therefore breaks one of the least of these commandments, and
teaches men so, shall be called least in the kingdom of heaven; but whoever
teaches them righteousness shall be called great in the kingdom of heaven. For I say to you, that unless your
righteousness exceeds the righteousness of the scribes and the Pharisees, you will by no means enter the
kingdom of heaven.”
“Remember the Commandments of the Lord,” Jesus spoke
in a reverential tone. “Take heed that
you understand what they mean. It is
said, ‘You shall not murder,’ and whoever murders will be in danger of
judgment. But I say to you that whoever
thinks murderous thoughts has committed murder in his heart. An angry spirit is often a murderous
spirit. Whoever is angry with his
brother, sister or neighbor, showing contempt or hatefulness without cause,
shall be in danger of breaking this commandment and may suffer hell fire. Therefore when you bring your gift to the
altar but remember that someone has a grudge against you, first find your
enemy, and be reconciled with that person before offering your gift. Agree with your adversary quickly, in case
your adversary deliver you to the judge, the judge hand you over to the
officer, and you are thrown into prison.
For there you must pay the price!”
“You have also heard it said.” He raised a finger. “‘You
shall not commit adultery.’ But I say to you, if man looks
at a woman or a woman looks at a man with lust, they have already committed
adultery in their heart. Furthermore,
they tell us, ‘Whoever divorces his wife or husband, let them provide a certificate of divorce.’ But I say to you, ‘whoever
divorces for any reason except sexual immorality causes his wife or husband to
commit adultery; and whoever marries someone who’s divorced commits the same
offense.
“If your right eye causes you to sin, pluck it
out and cast it from you, and if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off
and cast it from you. It is more
profitable for you that one of your members
perish than for your whole body to be cast into hell.
“It was written, ‘You shall not swear falsely, but
shall perform your oaths to the Lord.’ But
I say to you, don’t swear at all: neither by heaven, which is God’s throne or
by the earth, which is His footstool nor by Jerusalem, which is the city of David. Nor shall you swear by your head, because you
cannot make one hair white or black. But
let your Yes be Yes, and your No, No.
Anything more than this is from Satan, not the Lord.
“It was also written, ‘An eye for an eye and a tooth
for a tooth.’ But I tell you not to
resist an evil person. Whoever slaps
you on your right cheek, turn the other cheek to them. If anyone wants to sue you and take away
your tunic, let that person have your cloak too. And whoever compels you to go one mile, go with that person two. Give to those who asks you. From those who want to borrow from you, don’t
turn them away.
“Now we come to a great commandment.” Jesus looked
back at his disciples. “It’s thought
proper that you love your neighbor and hate your enemy, but that’s not in the
Law or the Prophets nor shall it be now.
I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to
those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you, that you may be sons of your
Father in heaven; for He makes the sun rise on the evil just as He does on the
good, and sends rain on the
unjust as well as the just. For if you
love those who love you, what reward have you? Do not even the tax collectors do this also? And if you greet your brethren only, what do
you do more than others? Do not even
the tax collectors no do the same? You
shall be perfect, just as your Father is perfect in heaven.
“Take heed that you don’t do charitable deeds before
men, to be seen by them. Otherwise you have no reward from your Father in heaven. When you do a charitable deed, do not sound
a trumpet before you as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets, that they may have glory
from men. Assuredly, I say to you, they
have their reward. When you do a
charitable deed, do not let your left hand know what your right hand’s doing, that
your charitable deed may be in secret.
Your Father, who sees in secret, will Himself reward you openly.
“When you pray, don’t be like the hypocrites. For they love to pray standing in the
synagogues and on the corners of
the streets, that they may be seen by men. Assuredly, I say to you, they have their reward. When you pray, go into your room, and when
you have shut your door, pray to your Father who is in this secret place. Your Father, who sees in secret, will reward
you openly. And when you pray, do not
use vain repetitions as the heathen does. For they think that they will be heard for their many words. Your Father knows the
things you have need of before you ask Him. In this manner, therefore,
remember this prayer:
Our Father in heaven, hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. They will be done on earth
as it is in heaven. Give us this day
our daily bread and forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors. And do not lead us into temptation, but
deliver us from evil. For thine is the
kingdom and the power and the glory forever.
Amen.”
“…. Remember this,” Jesus said, letting the prayer
sink in, “if you forgive those of their trespasses, your heavenly Father will
forgive you, but if you don’t forgive men their trespasses, your Father won’t forgive
you. Moreover, when you fast, don’t be
like the hypocrites, with a sad countenance. For they disfigure their faces that they may appear to men to be
fasting. Assuredly, I say to you, they
have their reward. When you fast,
anoint your head and wash your face, but do it privately, not publicly in order
to be seen fasting. Do this for your
Father in a secret place and He will reward you openly.”
“Remember this too,” he added solemnly. “Life is
brief; heaven is everlasting. Don’t lay
up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where
thieves break in and steal, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven,
where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and
steal. Where your treasure is, there will
be your heart, so choose spiritual things that last forever!”
“The lamp of the body is the eye.” He pointed
demonstratively. “If your eye is good, your whole body will be full of light. But
if your eye is bad, your whole body will be full of darkness. Therefore, if the light that is in you is
darkness, how great is that darkness!
“No one can
serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or else
he will be loyal to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon.
Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or
what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more
than clothing? Look at the birds of the
air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly
Father feeds them. Are you not of more
value than they? Which of you by
worrying can add one cubit to his stature?
So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil
nor spin, and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not
arrayed like one of them. Now if God so
clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the
oven, will He not clothe you that much more.
Oh you of little faith? Don’t
ask, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For after all these things the Gentiles seek. Your heavenly Father knows you need these
things. Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness,
and these things shall be given to you.
Don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
Looking out with a stern eye, he raised a finger
again. “Judge not, that you be not
judged. From what judgment you give,
you, too, will be judged and with what measure you use, it will be measured
back to you. Why do you look at
the speck in your someone’s eye and not
consider the plank in your own eye? How can you say to someone, ‘Let me remove
the speck from your eye’, when there is a plank is in your own eye? Hypocrite! First remove
the plank from your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck
out of someone else’s eye!”
With some bitterness in his voice, he said for the
benefit of his critics: “Do not give what is holy to the dogs nor cast your
pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet and turn and tear
you in pieces.” Then, changing the tone entirely, he smiled and raised his arms
wide. “The Lord is gracious in his mercy,” he cried. “Ask, and it will be given
to you; seek, and you will find. Knock,
and it will be opened to you. For
everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it
will be opened. What man or woman is
there among you who, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will he give him a
serpent? If you then, being evil, know
how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is
in heaven give good things to those who ask Him? Therefore, do unto others as you would have them do unto you, for
this is the Law and the Prophets.
“Enter by the narrow gate, for wide is the gate and
broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads
to life, there are few who find it. Beware
of false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s
clothing, but inwardly they are ravenous wolves. You will know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes from thorn bushes or figs from thistles? Even so, every good tree bears good fruit,
but a bad tree bears bad fruit. Every
tree that doesn’t bear good fruit is cut down and thrown into the fire. By their fruits you will know them. Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’
shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven. Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord,
have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done
many wonders in Your name?’ And then I
will say to them, ‘I knew you not; depart from Me, you who practice
lawlessness!’
“Whoever hears these sayings of mine, and follows
them, is a wise man who built his house on rock. The rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat
on that house, and it did not fall, for it was founded on rock. Now everyone who hears these sayings of mine
and does not follow them, will be a foolish man who built his house on sand. The rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat
on that house and it fell. And great
was its fall!”
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When Jesus was finished, the people
appeared spellbound. Raising two
fingers and his thumb, as he had done many times before, as if blessing his
audience, he signaled by this and his silence, the end of his sermon. I’ve never heard such stillness in so great
a multitude. He hadn’t merely preached
this time. He had given them a sermon
in which he not only laid out the formula for salvation but added new
commandments for their daily lives.
Although he avoided attacking the temple, priesthood, Pharisees, and
scribes, he condemned all hypocrites who tried winning salvation by outward
signs such as praying in public and making a show of ritual in place of inward
grace. Matthew managed to remember most
of what Jesus said and write it down.
Many of the disciples, however, in writing Jesus life and mission long
after the events that occurred, left out details. Though the basic elements are there, often the original words of
Jesus depend upon fading memories and are clouded by the prejudice of the
writer. One of my gifts recognized by
Jesus in our youth was my memory, which allowed me to fill in some of the
gaps. What I recall now is similar to
Matthew’s account, but is somewhat more accurate and not tainted by the male
prejudice against women, seen in the treatment of Mary of Magdalene and other
women. The constant reference to ‘him,’
for everyone, even though there were as many women in our audiences as men, was
used by all the apostles, even Paul, but Jesus referred to both men and women
or remained neutral, using words such as person or people.
Aside from the sayings themselves which were
something a great preacher like Jesus would utter, portions of his sermon were
rebukes against the doctors of the law.
Clearly to me, for example, when he talked of praying in a secret place
and bragging about the great things done for the Lord, he was referring to
these puffed up and arrogant men. When
I told James about my views of Jesus’ defense of the Law, however, he disagreed
with my opinion that Jesus meant his defense of the Ten Commandments, not all
those social and dietary laws added after Moses’ time. Because of his background as a scribe, the
gulf between the old tradition and Jesus’ message was difficult to cross. Most of his expectations for converts
regarding dietary and social laws hadn’t changed. Though Jesus cared not a wit about these minor laws, his own
expectations for converts, when they accepted the simplicity of the Way, was
actually more severe. It wasn’t enough
not to commit murder, adultery, or any other commandment laid down by
Moses. If you dwelled upon these
actions, you have committed them in your heart. Jesus’ view on marriage was also in great contradiction to
tradition. Jewish law allowed for a man
to divorce his wife, but it was impossible for a woman to divorce a man, and
yet Jesus’ view on divorce, which was much stricter than tradition, made it
possible to divorce only for sexual immorality—for both men and
women.
As I write down these words, I realize that most of
what Jesus said to the multitude wasn’t new to his thinking. Yet the sermon was, in Latin terms, his
magnum opus. The disciples, who hadn’t
known Jesus as James and I, saw it as a new dimension to him. In the words of Matthew, who would one day
record Jesus’ Sermon on the Mount, Jesus had proved he was the Messiah. It was his finest hour.
But Jesus success, many of us feared, had a downside
to it. There were, we were told, five
thousand people in his audience. The
fishermen worried that we would have to baptize many of them. Matthew, Simon, Thomas, Judas, Bartholomew,
James, and I discussed this amongst ourselves and agreed that doing the ritual
for such a number would be staggering, in fact impossible. It would take days to process that many
people. Despite our attempt at being
optimistic, though, we knew that Jesus was unpredictable. Because of the constant revelations in his
mind, there was no telling what he might do.
As he took a breather and chatted with us a few moments, I felt compelled
to bring up the subject. He laughed and
slapped my shoulder. To everyone’s relief, he reminded us of those times when
he preached and no one was given the ritual or baptized.
“My purpose today,” he explained
thoughtfully, “was to spread the word—this time in sayings, not ritual. There are too many listeners and, in the future,
there will be too many listeners for ritual and baptism. Except for when I send you out in twos,
that’s in the past.”
“Send us out!?” Simon, Matthew, and Thomas muttered
in dismay.
“You didn’t know that?” John looked at
them in disbelief.
“No,” Thomas’ voice trembled, “When
are we doing that?”
“Soon,” Philip smiled with mirth.
“We’re going out—sheep among the wolves.”
“Uh-uh.” Simon shook his head. “I’m
not a speaker, I’m a doer.”
“That goes for me!” Judas folded his
arms.
“Me too.” Matthew frowned. “I was a
tax collector, not a preacher. I got
enemies out there!”
“Well, you’re preachers now!” Peter
wagged a finger at them. “What do you think Jesus has been preparing you for?”
“I dunno.” Simon scratched his head,
“I thought we just assisted him. We’re
really going out on our own?”
“No, in twos,” Peter grew
irritated. “You should pay attention Simon.
You also Matthew and Judas. Why
would Jesus be training us if he didn’t want us to share the load. You’re his apprentices!”
“Is that what we are?” Matthew
grumbled. “I thought we were disciples.”
“I can’t do it,” Thomas shook his
head. “I chatter like a magpie at times, but I can’t preach.”
“Oh, the preaching is easy,” Simon
shrugged. “It’s those baptisms I worry about.”
“I don’t understand,” Judas looked
around the group. “I thought Jesus did all that stuff? I’m new here. I’m not prepared for this!”
“Judas came late,” Jesus entered the
conversation, “he hasn’t gotten the word.
Have faith Matthew and Simon. As
I’ve said before, take one day at a time.
Your all going to do just fine!”
For the time being the subject was put
to rest. Though Peter tried to put a
good face on it, we dreaded going out on our own. Despite this concern, the grandeur of today overshadowed our
doubts as we looked out at the crowd.
For the Shepherd, whose audience was now in the thousands, there were
more immediate concerns. Fortunately,
we didn’t have to look for the representatives of this gathering. We couldn’t find Uzziah and his friends,
whom Jesus suspected were spies, but representatives from different cities soon
arrived to congratulate Jesus on his stirring speech. Though no mention was made of how many of their countrymen felt
about his sermon, Jesus was quite satisfied.
As important to Jesus was the question of whether the crowd had brought
food. The representatives, whose
enthusiasm had encouraged the people to travel so far, were unclear on this
matter. Jesus asked them to find out if
there was enough food to hold them over until they returned home.
Peter, who shared our opinion on the subject,
suggested we go back to his house before Jesus was stuck performing an endless
line of cures, but Jesus dallied, answering questions and explaining his
message to listeners. I noticed that
the vast majority of people were polite.
In fact, as Jesus chatted with his disciples and then talked to the
representatives, those nearest to the speaker waited patiently for their turn. We had plenty of time to slip away. Unfortunately, Jesus had waited too
long. Finally, after standing back in
awe of the miracle worker, the crowd saw their chance, and we were suddenly
mobbed. Several sick, maimed, and blind
men and women appeared in this group.
With them, came a pair of idlers who simply wanted to put Jesus to the
test.
“Rabbi! Rabbi!” voices called out, explaining in
detail their ailments.
One fellow, dressed like a scribe, asked Jesus if he
did this in the name of Beelzebub or God.
Jesus ignored the scribe and a second request that
he turn a container of water into wine.
Word had evidently gotten out about the wedding in Cana where Jesus
performed this miracle. What might
have been worrisome was the scribe who challenged Jesus. Fortunately for him this time, the crowd was
in no mood for such interruptions. A
burly fellow who had tenderly carried his sick wife to Jesus for a cure
threatened to break the man’s nose.
Several men and women in line cheered him, a few making similar
threats. If there were Pharisees,
scribes, or temple agents in the crowd, they must have gotten the word, because
there were no more challenges today.
Greatly perturbed nevertheless by the line of
supplicants, we waited as Jesus performed his cures. Making important exceptions, after telling us he would leave this
business to us, Jesus took this opportunity to make converts for the Way. This delayed matters that much more. That hour, as quickly as possible, he gave
the rites after curing a blind woman, a man with a cough, a deaf mute child, a
man who injured himself fixing his roof, three crippled youths, and a palsied
old man. Then, after a mixture of
ailments I can scarcely explain, a leper appeared scattering everyone,
including his disciples to the foot of the hill.
“That’s awful!” Philip shuddered. “He has no nose. He barely has a face.”
“He smells too,” Matthew made a face.
“He’a a typical leper.” Andrew summarized. “Sores
all over, clothes in tatters, his body eaten away.”
“That poor wretched fellow.” I shuddered. “What sin
did he do for that?”
“None.” James said thoughtfully. “Good men suffer
too. Remember Justus, whom Jesus
cured? Look at Job, who was tested by
God.”
“That’s true.” I gave him a look of respect. “God
allows misfortune to come to both sinners and saved.”
“Humph!” Judas shook his head. “Why would God give
someone leprosy?”
“He works in mysterious ways,” Bartholomew offered,
stroking his beard.
“Right.” Tobin nodded in agreement. “Look what
happened to me.”
“That’s right.” Judas snapped his fingers. “I heard
about you, Tobin. You’re one of the shepherds who visited him in the manger.”
“He was in a bad state when we found him.”
Bartholomew gave him a pat.
“That’s a prime example of God’s capriciousness.”
James sighed. “We mustn’t question Him, though. His purpose is inscrutable.
He’s unknowable. Jesus is his
interpreter: the voice of God.”
“Exactly,” I exclaimed, “that’s what he is,
James—the voice of God.”
“It’s true,” Judas mulled over the
idea, “Jesus is his voice, but why is there so much death and disease. Why would a merciful God allow that?”
“Through Jesus, God is merciful,” the
words poured out of my mouth.
“Really?” Mary’s voice intruded. “Why would he allow
our people to be persecuted? Why are
temple agents against Jesus now?”
I had almost said it. If Jesus spoke for God, I couldn’t help wondering, what did that
make him? More important to the group
that moment, however, were Mary’s questions.
Peter, who had been talking to Andrew, looked over at her, shaking his
head. “Now, now, Mary, we don’t question God.”
“It’s a fair question,” Simon raised an eyebrow.
“I’ve often asked it myself: ‘Why is God cruel?’ Why, for that matter, does He let those bloodsucking priests
fleece our people.”
James bristled but said nothing. Peter and the other disciples now joined our
conversation.
“That’s a strange thing for a temple agent to say,”
John teased.
“Yeah,” drawled his brother, “once you were in the
pay of those bloodsucking priests.”
“I’m one of you now.” Simon glared at the brothers.
“Why can’t you two accept me. If I had
still been a spy, I’d have the goods on Jesus by now. He’s challenged the temple, our tradition, and everything I
believed in, but I’m here to stay.
There’s no where I’d rather be!”
“Simon, Simon,” Bartholomew, hobbled over, his voice
thin with fatigue, “they’re just joking.
They poke fun at me too. We all
have questions. Jesus is here to answer
them!”
“Well,” Judas announced airily, “we don’t have to
worry anymore. The Messiah’s come—the
voice of God. He’ll answer our
questions. Our enemies don’t stand a chance!”
If we hadn’t been so tired and focused on the
moment, Judas exclamation would have troubled us. Though that title had been used repeatedly for Jesus, it should
be clear by now that he wasn’t the Messiah spoken of by the prophets who would
sweep away our conquerors. No one else
in our group, except Judas, saw Jesus in that light. Turning our attention completely to Jesus and the leper then, we
returned to this discussion.
“What could Jesus be saying to that man?” Philip
complained. “Why hasn’t he given him the cure?”
“Yeah,” Andrew studied the scene. “…Why was it
taking so long? Jesus did the others
quickly. He’s exhausted and needs a
rest. What was so special about
him?
“Well, one thing for sure.” Peter said, looking down
at the crowd. “That leper shooed them away.
There are all manner of diseased and crippled people out there. Jesus can’t cure them all.”
“Just how contagious is leprosy?” Thomas gave
me a worried look. “He brushed passed me as I stood there.”
“Don’t worry, Thomas,” I said reassuringly. “Jesus told me that leprosy is hard to
catch. A person has to be in poor shape
and share the same bowl or mug with someone.
It’s not like the fever or plague.”
“What’s the big
deal?” waved Simon. “We have Jesus. If
you catch it, he’ll cure it. I
sort’ve
feel invincible with him. He’s like a
shield against the world.”
“Yeah,” Judas
savored the idea, “I like that—invincible, a shield. Jesus has great power! In
a sense, we’re indestructible!”
“We won’t be when we sends out to preach,” Thomas
sighed.
Reminded of this prospect, we lapsed into
silence. I could scarcely imagine
myself preaching to a crowd. I couldn’t
imagine any of us as preachers, especially the bumbling Thomas or pugnacious
Simon. In what must be considered
another important cure for Jesus’ record, he performed the rite, the action of
sprinkling him with Peter’s water skin apparently washing away his
disease. We could hear the audience
below ooh and awe. When we finally saw
Jesus and his patient turn toward us after this, it must have been over, but,
because of the hood over the man’s head, we couldn’t be sure. As they began walking toward us, we waited
with bated breath. The person he cured
this time had, after all, been a ruined shell.
As Judas said that moment, “If he could fix him, he could fix anything,
anyone, anytime!” Judas had become a
great enthusiast of Jesus, but he failed to understand who he was. The sun shone on Jesus brown hair those
moments, giving him that halo-effect.
His eyes flashed like sapphires.
The onetime wreck of a man, whom he introduced immediately as Thaddeus,
was a brand new person. John and his
brother James’ father was named Thaddeus too.
This name was also significant to me because I was called that during my
travels. My Roman friends thought Jude
sounded too Jewish, and yet I was addressed as Thaddeus Judaicus at times. As I stared at this transformed man,
remembering this trivia, I was reminded of the fair-haired Britons that joined
our band. This man was even
fairer. He was obviously not a Jew, but
a Gentile. Because Jesus had cured a
Gentile before, we weren’t surprised.
What surprised us was his countenance, which made him appear as an
angelic figure emerging in our midst.
His hair was blond, his skin almost milk white, and he had, like Jesus,
piercing blue eyes. Jesus had given him
a new set of clothes too: a white tunic, white sash, and white robe, a
combination he sometimes wore himself.
Greatly moved by what we saw (especially me), we had to be prodded to
give our names. As Jesus pointed his
finger at us, we sounded off one-by-one.
Of our group, Judas was the only one to maintain his wits, when Jesus
finally came to him.
“Judas Iscariot,” he piped. “Jesus,” he turned to
him then, “that was incredible. He
looks like he just stepped off a cloud.”
Jesus ignored the compliment, replying quickly,
“Thaddeus and Tobin will be a part of the Seventy. They will remain in Capernaum, with Mary Magdalene and Peter’s
family. The remainder of the people
cured today will also join the Seventy.
After you disciples go out, I have big plans for them. We will, as Simon might say, have an army of
agents for the Lord.”
“What about the multitude?” Peter motioned. “Are
they going home?”
“In the morning,” Jesus heaved sigh. “They want me
to speak again.” “I know men.” He glanced around at us. “Many of them are here
for the show. They want miracles more
than words. But I saw illumination in
many of them. It shouldn’t take
miracles to believe, but I saw true conviction in those I cured. This time, all of the cured, will
serve the Lord. As the word spreads,
our army will grow. The islands of
converts in various cities and towns will themselves become missionaries. Today was another milestone—the greatest so
far. Have patience with the
masses. If only a small portion of them
are saved and, in turn, save others, it will one day reach the corners of the
empire. The entire world will know the
truth!”
There was that word again: truth. Jesus was, I understood dimly, the
truth. His destiny
seemed awe-inspiring but
overwhelming. Though fearful, we were
also excited to be in the army of Jesus, on the edge of a wave sweeping the
earth. Only Judas frowned that moment. “The Empire? The world,” I heard him mutter, “I thought he came for the Jews!”
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We weren’t happy that the crowds had lingered. We were used to smaller groups and moving
from town to town as Jesus spread the word.
Now, they were coming to us, and they wanted him to make another
appearance. Jesus was more exhausted
than he had ever been before. Peter had
voiced our concerns about this several times, but it was no use. He wouldn’t disappoint the crowds. In spite of his optimism, he was worried
about peoples attitudes: most of them wanted miracles. He was, more immediately, worried about the
welfare of the multitude. They would
have to camp overnight in the hills.
Even though they were near Lake Gennesaret, it was doubtful if they had
the means or know-how to fish. Judging
by the response given to him by their representatives, they had little to
eat. But Jesus, though a miracle
worker, was still a man… He was bone weary and needed to get away from the
crowd.
“Come back to the house,” Peter coaxed him. “Esther
will fix you something special.”
Esther nodded wearily, but Dinah shook her head in
disbelief. “Just whip something up,
eh?” I heard her grumble under her breath. “Why doesn’t Jesus use his powers to
whip something up!” Considering the
chaos his presence caused, I couldn’t blame her for what she said. I’m glad Jesus and the other disciples
hadn’t heard her remark, but the truth was, as we entered the main room, the
house was a shambles after the damage done to the roof, and the women were
exhausted themselves. Mary was quick
with her input, too, suggesting the same thing as Dinah, but in a positive
spirit. Jesus looked at her tolerantly,
replying wearily, “I don’t use God’s power frivolously.” I doubt Mary knew what the word frivolously
meant, but I knew she wasn’t stupid.
Someday, I told myself, she would surprise us. For now, I comforted her quietly as the disciples plopped down in
various corner of the room: “Your heart is pure, Mary.” I said discreetly.
“Jesus knows this. Don’t ever change!”
Mary smiled warmly at me. Had I been the man I was before—the adventurer and scamp, I would have done everything in my power to have this woman… But I wasn’t that selfish man nor was Mary the person she was before. As we glanced at each other, while Esther, Dinah, and Bernice entered the kitchen for the purpose of making us supper, I sensed greatness in her. It wasn’t in her beauty, words, or girlish manners, but in the simple fact, Jesus had transformed her, as he had Thaddeus. He had a purpose for her far beyond a helpmate for Peter’s wife and mother-in-law or mere convert of the Way. What it was I didn’t know then, but there was no one, except perhaps Jesus own mother, who would love him more. I had decided almost immediately, after the miracle that made her who she was, to be her friend. Though John, Judas, and I looked at her lustfully at times, the other disciples thought of her as ‘that ex-prostitute,’ as they looked upon Matthew as that “ex-tax gatherer,’ and Simon as that ‘ex-temple spy.’ The fishermen were slow to accept outsiders. Now, I felt the urge to be her protector against their criticism. In this noble enterprise, I competed with both Judas and John.
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